A Birthday, Looking Forward, Looking Back, and Hanging On

I've been having random thoughts lately having to do with my firstborn turning 9.  Mindblowing.  I mean 9, really?  At nine I remembered all those things.  You know, really remembered them. 

I hear songs on the radio, like the one with the pony she called Wildfire, and Time Passages, and The Winner Takes It All and they take me way back, they give me that weird - good but weird -feeling in my stomach.  So this same age that shes in, these are the days, she will remember these days.  Mine were days of doing the "Hustle" at Summer fun, of wearing those Hawaiian print wraparound shorts my mom sewed(ok maybe that was a Hawaii thing) of playing "Charlies Angels" in Jordache jeans and roller skates and pretending I had flippy Farrah hair.   I still remember the feeling, the one where you ache to be older but at the same time cling to mom, cause she's solid, familiar, you can count on her. 

I can see it in C-girl, I can feel it with her, I don't want to miss it.  When she's older, in maybe 5 years, likely sooner, it won't be there anymore, she won't need me like that. 

So gone are the times when I can say "ah, she won't remember this anyway" cause she will.  These are the days. 

So to my tomboy girl who loves everything Muppet, animal and Pokemon.  Who wants to be a rock geologist (thats the career choice of the moment) and who can make me raging mad one moment then charm me crazy the next, Happy 9th Birthday.  May you remember and cherish the happy moments of these sweet years.

Comments

[babybug]

omg! yes, playing charlie's angels in jordache jeans. i think i had chic jeans, too. LOL! and roller skates, omg! i'm trying to remember those wrap-around shorts...were they the ones that kind of looked like diapers and then you tied the two ends together in the front?
your post made me think of that vanessaa williams song, "these are the days, the sweetest days we'll know"

[Heather]

What a beautiful post. Happy Birthday kisses to C-Girl!

[Nonnahs]

Happy Birthday to C-Girl!

OMG, wrap-around shorts! Those were awesome! Rollerskating was the best! Don't forget the Mork-style rainbow suspenders with the ceramic pins from Summer's Place. Ha!